I don’t have much to say but I wanted to let you know i am fine. I keep busy but with Teri here the biggest load of responsibility by far is on her. I do not mean to manipulate and am even hesitant to say anything about it because what I say about this comes out sounding manipulative. It’s a relief with her here. That is surely a reflection on me, because responsibly is something I will gladly share, or duck out of is probably more like it, whenever I can. But I want you to know that I will stay here and carry whatever I have to for as long as necessary. Whoever is here.
I miss you. In melancholy moments I am very sad about recreation and the passion of time when I am not in your proximity. It has made me much more aware of the awsomeness (sic) of what you are doing, and the finality of things. Words are hollow and in reality I do not do all that I could to uphold the work here. The troubles with Leona for one thing. I take a large part of the responsibility. I take a large part of the responsibility for that. Keeping to myself and not communicating. That won’t happen again as long as I am here.
I feel for the burden you are carrying and for the heartbreaks. I cannot conceive of life without knowing you. You have touched my life very deeply. Whatever happens, life as you have given it to us is fulfilled.